ABOUT THE BOOK
Being Tommy’s mother is too much for Sonya.
Too much love, too much fear, too much longing for the cool wine she gulps from the bottle each night. Because Sonya is burning the fish fingers, and driving too fast, and swimming too far from the shore, and Tommy’s life is in her hands.
Once there was the thrill of a London stage, a glowing acting career, fast cars, handsome men. But now there are blackouts and bare cupboards, and her estranged father showing up uninvited. There is Mrs O’Malley spying from across the road. There is the risk of losing Tommy – forever.
Sonya doesn’t function well these days, and her four-year-old son Tommy isn’t old enough yet to safely fend for himself or the family rescue dog Herbie. At best days are a haze, while others are blank for Sonya. When the story begins, Sonya is still spiralling down, but she isn’t far from rock bottom. The three of them, live on a sparse diet of fish fingers and beans, with Tommy being small for his age and underweight. Sonya gets a wake-up call one day when she realises she has stepped over the line.
Sonya is a complex character whose mind you live in for most of the book. As a reader, you see the world how she sees it, paranoid and impulsive. Sonya is determined to give her son a good childhood but with ideas that make you hold your breath. Tommy is such a sweet child, and like any four-year-old does what his mummy tells him because she is his mum, faithful and obedient like Herbie.
Like so many addicts, Sonya is facing addiction and bringing a child up by herself, as her family have turned their backs on her. It is a gripping story, harrowing and raw that isn’t just seen by people on the outside looking in, but from Sonya, as she sees her life from both sides of the bottle.
Written with heart, this is an exceptional story that may help people see how an addict’s life is from the inside out. Addiction isn’t a choice, it happens to so many people from all walks of life. I hope this story helps people understand a little more.
I wish to thank Net Galley and the publisher for an e-copy of this book which I have reviewed honestly.
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