If Only I Could Tell You by Hannah Beckerman @orionbooks @hannahbeckerman #IfOnly #BookReview #NetGalley

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‘I loved it’ Jojo Moyes

‘Compelling and moving . . . it made me cry’ Marian Keyes

‘Had me totally gripped. Highly recommended’ BBC Radio 2’s Sara Cox


Audrey’s family has fallen apart. Her two grown-up daughters, Jess and Lily, are estranged, and her two teenage granddaughters have never been allowed to meet. A secret that echoes back thirty years has splintered the family in two, but is also the one thing keeping them connected.

As tensions reach breaking point, the irrevocable choice that one of them made all those years ago is about to surface. After years of secrets and silence, how can one broken family find their way back to each other?


If Only I Could Tell You: The hopeful, heartbreaking story of family secrets you need to read in summer 2019


It is summer and my eyes are puffy and red, my nose streaming and I am surrounded by tissues. It is years since I had hayfever, this is just my reaction to the last few pages in this book. Oh wow!

In the first few pages of this book, I was horrified, my mind racing to make sense of what I had just witnessed, ok I wasn’t fully in the ‘know’ but something was definitely amiss here. Then when tragedy struck the family I thought I had it all worked out.

From only ten years old Jess had decided that she wanted nothing to do with her older sister. By the time they were grown-up Jess was determined that their daughters would never meet. By the time their mother had been diagnosed with terminal cancer, she knew that she couldn’t even mend bridges between them just to give their mother her final wish.

Audrey, Jess and Lily’s mother was determined to resolve the feud that had eaten away at her family for the past 28 years. She was stuck in the middle loving them both and heartbroken that they could never all be together. Lily swore she didn’t know what she had done and Jess refused to talk about it.

Audrey knows that if she can’t get her girls together before she dies then the family will never survive, it will never happen. I loved the ploys she used, smiled at how she played situations and loved her cunning. At the times when she was growing weaker, they were her strongest moments.

The story unfolds like petals falling from a flower until finally all that is left is the root of the problem. And I cried and cried. Then I read some more and well and truly howled. Such a powerful story, such a tender story and If Only I Could Tell You, but you will have to read it yourself. Outstanding!

I wish to thank NetGalley and the publisher for an e-copy of this book which I reviewed honestly.


Hannah Beckerman

Welcome to my author page and thank-you for visiting! I’ve been writing stories for as long as I can remember, but it was only a few years ago that I took the plunge and sat down to write my first novel, The Dead Wife’s Handbook. Earlier this year, I published my second, If Only I Could Tell You, which took me a very long time to write, but which I’m immensely proud of: if you decide to dive in, I hope you enjoy it.

Aside from writing books, I’m a journalist (writing mostly about books and authors) and an events chair, interviewing writers at literary festivals and publishing events around the country. (I like to pretend it’s work, but essentially it’s just one long creative writing masterclass).

I live in London with my husband and daughter, in a house which is currently pet-less but I suspect may not stay that way for long.

I love chatting to readers and fellow writers, both in the flesh and online, so please do come and say hello on Twitter, Instagram or Facebook. And if you click on the Follow button above, Amazon will tell you about my upcoming releases.


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Twitter: @hannahbeckerman


If Only I Could Tell You: The hopeful, heartbreaking story of family secrets you need to read in summer 2019 by [Beckerman, Hannah]

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