IF EVER I FALL by S.D. ROBERTSON @SDRauthor @Avon/Harper Collins

If Ever I Fall by [Robertson, S.D.]


A heart-rending story of family tragedy, perfect for fans of Amanda Prowse and Jojo Moyes.

Is holding on harder than letting go?

Dan’s life has fallen apart at the seams. He’s lost his house, his job is on the line, and now he’s going to lose his family too. All he’s ever wanted is to keep them together, but is everything beyond repair?

Maria is drowning in grief. She spends her days writing letters that will never be answered. Nights are spent trying to hold terrible memories at bay, to escape the pain that threatens to engulf her.

Jack wakes up confused and alone. He doesn’t know who he is, how he got there, or why he finds himself on a deserted clifftop, but will piecing together the past leave him a broken man?

In the face of real tragedy, can these three people find a way to reconcile their past with a new future? And is love enough to carry them through?


There was something very wrong, the man just knew, where was he? Nothing was familiar to him, in fact he wasn’t even familiar with anything about himself. It was like this is day one and nothing had gone before it. He only existed from the moment his eyes opened. He knew what things were but nothing about his past apart from the headache, he knew about that. With the eerie appearance of Dr. Miles the tale became even more strange. There were rules, no clocks or computers, no T.V’s or newspapers, just sort of living in the moment. Eat when your hungry sleep when your tired. Simply leave the rat race behind……But the man with no memory needed to know, one way or another he had to find out about his past and who he was.

This is a very unusual story that becomes easier to follow the further you read into it, Told by three people. Jack the man with no memory, that lives in the moment , Dan whose story travels back in time to a tragic event a year before and his OCD wife Maria that spills her feelings into letters as time moves forward for her from the tragic event to present day.  It feels a little bit like developing  a film the more you become immersed, the clearer the picture becomes. It is beautifully written and does become intriguing as to how it is all going to fix together.  I soon became aware of the outcome, so it was at matter of finding out how and why, as well as feeding my growing curiosity about Jack.

We are all individuals that deal with personal tragedy in very different ways and S. D. Robertson captures this beautifully, even if he uses extremes to show it. I really liked Ruby that at times was a little lost soul having to deal with mum and dad’s inability to cope. Her frustration was so evident, bless her. This book has those difficult to blink moments because if you do you will release that tear.

I wish to thank Netgalley and Avon an imprint of HarperCollins Publishers for this novel that I have chosen to review.


S.D. Robertson

Former journalist S.D. Robertson quit his role as a local newspaper editor to pursue a lifelong ambition of becoming a novelist.

An English graduate from the University of Manchester, he’s also worked as a holiday rep, door-to-door salesman, train cleaner, kitchen porter and mobile phone network engineer.

Over the years Stuart has spent time in France, Holland and Australia, but home these days is back in the UK. He lives in a village near Manchester with his wife and daughter. There’s also his cat, Bernard, who likes to distract him from writing – usually by breaking things.




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